Void
Now I know the feeling of being void...the meangingless and purposeless feeling that man may feel and lead to the eventual sucide of some people.This fearsome feeling...a feeling that totally digs your heart out and let you feel so empty from the inside out...A feeling that really made you think "It's better off dead..."

I thank God that He is with me all along so that even if I had this feeling,I won't be overwhelmed and overcome by this feeling.For feeling is just feeling.I know that there is more to life for I have found my Father,my Saviour,my Refuge.

Spiritual Gift & Love Language
Just calculated my spiritual gift test...Results?

My Top 3 Giftings given by my Precious Father (in ascending order):

1) Helps/Serving

2) Mercy

3) Encouragement & Teacher

Haha.Encouragement and Teacher both had the same score.Teacher...very unexpected...Mercy has always been among the top 3 giftings whenever I do the test.I think its all because God showered His mercy upon me so much that I have so much mercy.

Some of the giftings that have quite high scores are: Word of Knowledge, Pastor and Prophecy.

I thank God for all the giftings He has given to me.I pray that I will faithfully use these gifts to glorify and build up His kingdom.

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My Love Language test results is also out (in ascending order):

1) Acts of Service

2) Quality Time

3) Gift

4) Words of Affirmation

5) Physical Touch

Hmmm...My Love Language never changed...The 1st time I did it,my top 2 are Acts of Service and Quality Time as well.

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Will my giftings and love language change?I don't know for sure.However ,whatever it is,my future is in my Father's hands.He is already there in the future.All I need to do is work towards His wonderful plan for me.

23-08-20098
Muhahaha...kenna bombed by people to ask me update blog...opps...sorry for not updating!

Just ended my exams yesterday!Yeah!Haha!Went to JUMP(Jesus U Must Praise) during the evening.Though it drizzled half way during the concert,it was enjoyable.Np had a few visitors.I went home with Yi Ting since both of us live at West and take MRT.Got to know her better on the journey.She likes hot/spicy stuff,does not really like salmon but do eat sushi.Met Kenny,Tian Ruo and Ming Hui!Haven't seen them for around 1year?So glad to see them still around.Meeting them reminds me of the others who were in the grad's group.Wonder how are they now...Yan Shi,Yi Shi and the list goes on...

Today was super tiring but refreshing.Couldn't wake up as I slept at 2.40am in the morning.It was so cold when I woke up.Reached Istana Park around 11.15am...was late...but was the first to reach...I saw a group of people wearing red T-shirts with cream on their face there.I was quite shocked as I expect there would be people(NP) there before me but none was there.Thought I was wrong about the time or venue but couldn't be as Aileen was on her way too.Had CT CG until 1+pm and went to eat.We took a long time to decide what to buy for Kelvin as his birthday was today.My shoulders were aching very badly in the afternoon due to lack of sleep.I was giddy as well(Jolene experienced it too).Thus,if the people who were there saw me very tired or emotionless is due to the above two factors.

Cindy and Phoebe came to service!Woohoo!Thank God for them.It's been a long time since I last met them.Kelly is going back to China on this coming Tuesday.May God bless her journey back and that she will impact her family.一路顺风!The sermon talks about prayer and I was blessed by this sermon.Reminds me of how I pray,quite similar to how the king prayed.God is a personal and almighty God and He always keeps His promises.

Celebrated Kelvin's birthday after service.The guys washed the Holy Com cups after service so the girls,Rui Hao(who was holding the cake) and Zi Jie were waiting outside the door at 6th floor.When he came out along with the rest of the guys,we shouted "Surprise!" followed by the birthday song.Can see that he is actually quite touched but just act cool and calm.Went a round of affirmation and a prayer of blessing(the whole thing took quite a long time).Actually I'm quite lost as to what I want to affirm and encourage him...There are more things that I want to say but forget.Opps.Haha.Went to Meridien to eat.Stayed there until being chased out.By then,Jasmine has already reached home so I went home along with the accompany of my mp3.

So many things have happened and passed...God,give me strength,give me wisdom,give me all that I need...No longer running away but to face the situation with You.I am weak but You are strong.Hope.

*This entry quite disorganised as I'm in hibernating mode*