Am I hurt?I guess so...she always does things by her will...When I just talked abit louder...she just scolded me for being loud.Maybe I was wrong to talk louder.As people grow older,they thought they know alot more.Yes,in some way but not always.People are really forgetful.They always forget the fact that everyone is different from one another.No one is the same so we can't expect others to do exactly what we think.Alot of times,we human also forget to think and feel what the other party is thinking and feeling.When we criticise the flaws of a person that is obvious,we forget that the person himself/herself knows it deep down in the heart.What we said just hurt the person more if the person was really trying to change for the better.Adding things that sound unreasonable just add fuel to the fire.

She always said that I am not like other children who are more obedient.Even if its her fault,she never apologise.What an example she has set.She is like him,pride is so important.Hardly recognise their faults.When they apologised,they don't sound sincere."It's hard to live with her."This sentence flash through my mind.However,I brushed away the thought.

God,help me!I can only put up a strong front even if I'm hurt...because she will say I'm just a crybaby.It is only in isolation that I can cry in front of you,oh Lord.Scars always reopen when things get wrong.My scars aren't totally healed.Slowly but surely,I know I will be healed if I allow You to.Perhaps,I forget to ask the reason why I did things that's why I lost control of myself.Lord,I know You let me go through these for a reason.I just have to trust in You.I shall not fail again when the test comes again.

信じているんだ 。
あきらめないんだ。
独りじゃないさ 。

Just some updates about me...

I'm in my second year in NP!Wahaha!1 year has passed...have I grown?Perhaps in some ways or another.So many things had happened within a holiday.Broken trust,guilt,yearning for understanding.How do we look at things,our perspective...its all up to each individual.Sometimes I may say something that people might not understand fully(maybe I was thinking too much?).

To tell the truth,the 'me' that is inside my physical self...is just immatured.There are so many things that the 'me' think so childishly.I want to grow up.No longer immature but mature.I want to do more things for the Father who loves me so much with a pure and blameless heart.

I pray for a discerning heart.There are so many information that are being input into my mind everyday.I want to learn to discern to know the truth.Many things in this world can be a bluff.I want to be truthful.I want to know how people really feel.I may know somethings but I don't know everything.

There are many animations airing now!Neo Angelique Abyss(Ending theme sang by Tegomass!!!),Vampire Knight(my sis likes On/Off),One Piece,Katekyo Hitman Reborn and Special A.NewS is having their new single out too!Woohoo!

I love アイアイ傘(Ending theme of Neo Angelique Abyss) and アメあと(Ending theme of Katekyo Hitman Reborn,sang by w-inds)!Both songs are mentioned about rain.Coincidence?Haha!Recommend both songs!Soothing songs!

Now my IS is Basic Conversational Japanese.4hours per week soley for Japanese lesson!Wah!1 lesson can really learn alot of things!There are so many people in NP unit learning Japanese too!Gideon,Brenda and Li Qiang.Later everyone begin to speak Japanese!My lecturer,Chishiho sensei is also the same lecturer as Brenda and Li Qiang's.

This 2 weeks have been practising for the captain's ball tournament that is on 11 May 2008!I accidentally hurt my right knee when I was jumping.What a fool!Haha.It really hurts sometimes.Today had another practice...My blister burst.Quite ouch but not as bad as my injured knee.I really need to intake protein-rich food.My breathing is getting worse.I can't breathe well when I excercise anymore.Last week,I was really short of breath that I need to take a break.Thanks for all the concern!The thing is that my haemogoblin(forget how to spell) is really lower than normal range.My mother had been giving me food to boost the part I'm lacking but it doesn't seem to work.I really pray I will get well soon.

I spoke to the group after worship this cg.As I worship the Lord...the story just came to my mind along with "reliance" and "trust".I thank God for using me.

My Father,help me to grow!